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23 March 2008 @ 09:32 pm
confess it, b!tchh  
3. I'm veryyy insecure, and when there's a change in environment especially, I just close up and kinda stop being able to just be myself and not feel fake...I'm worried that I won't be able to just chill out when I get to college and that it's going to be as hard to make friends there as it was for me to keep friends in high school.

4. Sometimes I feel like I just wanna hate the world.. like, it's not that I'm tired or irritable, but every time someone is near or talks to me, I feel like attacking them with a sarcastic, witty comeback that makes them feel like crap.. but these moods are few and far between, and I very rarely actually do that. It's been a while since I've been sarcastic, i think i'd have to practice it. but no1 likes a bitch, I've heard.

5. Last year I really hated this girl Tiffany. I thought she was loud and ignorant beyond belief, and she always distracted the chem teacher, making the rest of us have more homework and have to teach ourselves the lesson at home. So one day she was pissing me off being loud, and she said something about dying, and I said under my breath something like "i wouldn't mind" and my friend Anjelica heard me, and I think she's thought less of me ever since. And it just bugs me every time I see Anjelica.. I feel really guilty for saying that.
Current Location: my bed
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: I Don't Love You- My Chemical Romance
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Addiesakuraberries on March 24th, 2008 03:22 pm (UTC)
Yes, insecurity is me too. Like, if I'm sitting, speaking with my friends, and along comes a person I don't know too well, I clam up and get really shy. It's really irrational, but I just need to get used to a person before I can talk openly with them.

Why would Anjelica think less of you? Did you mean you wouldn't mind dying, or you wouldn't mind if Tiffany died? Either way, Anjelica should have realized that you were kidding/being sarcastic/frustrated/whatever else. I say stuff like that all the time...we all do.
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